Women have a wealth of experience imagining themselves in male narratives. They have done it their whole lives, witnessing men in strong roles in politics, business, and the arts. In this short film, I wanted to tell the story of a woman who examines this masculinity and envisions a different path for how she might fit into the world. She steps into her own gaze and finds belonging.

My background is in experimental theater. I remember being in the audience watching talented men perform on stage and becoming enamored with them. At a certain point, I realized that it was not that I was attracted to them, but that I wanted to be them. I wanted to occupy the space and the kind of roles they were given. I wanted to feel free, powerful, and in command of myself and my surroundings. 

Susan Sontag wrote, “What is most beautiful in virile men is something feminine; what is most beautiful in feminine women is something masculine.” As a queer woman, I wanted to play with where these lines of femininity and masculinity disappear into each other. To find the space where the binary is no longer relevant and the true self emerges. And, hopefully, to arrive on the other side with a more nuanced idea of masculinity, power, and representation.